When the going gets tough

Supposedly the tough get going when the going gets tough.

I am coming to think this is easily more true when you are under 40 years of age. It gets harder and harder the more hits you take after 40 to muster up the energy, guts and guile to just push through the hard times in life. Its a bit like a lot of video games where your character takes more and more punishment in whatever form and loses "life force" or points or whatever until he or she can no longer continue the game and is snuffed out.

In the real world it plays out similarly. Fortunately in games you just start over or get another life.. ..... Hmmm another life? Maybe that is what I need. Another life. A life different from the stressful, filled with poor habits, grinding life I have been trying to lead to purchase the old American dream.

Don't get me wrong, I don't want the new American Dream - a.k.a. Infamy at any cost to personal integrity. I've ranted about that enough in prior posts (check out Dreamsicles on youtube for a filmed version of this perversion). Nor, do I want a different life by walking out on my beloved spouse and children or my friends and starting over as some are known to do in a "mid-life crisis".

No, I need THE life I was meant to live. Caring for my body with the best foods and exersize. Not abusing alcohol to just get by the blues. Doing something meaningful for the family, community and world. THAT is the other life I need. I need it pretty desperately right now.

I believe we seek to numb ourselves and just fight through the tough times, while God would choose to wake us up to our true deepest desires and even dissappointments. We have to be in touch with our heart to find the life we were meant to live.

So now that the going has gotten as tough as I have ever had it. I to want to get going. going to the life I need. Another life. A new life.